I was just thinking.

I saw man singing love songs to her wive while washing the car. I saw dog on the roof. I saw a woman who had boobs, but no ass.

And all that made me think.

And my thoughts, now that i have loads of time to think, because i have nothing else to do in school, they ramble a lot. It's amazing how i can totally forget everything that's around me and disappear somewhere far far away, until someone says something totally random and i'm suddenly back in this reality.
It's like my own Neverneverland, and i can't even remember what i was thinking, and i think thats sometimes best for me. I don't even want to know what my mind can create. I'm quite sure that i'm day dreaming, like really sleeping during the classes... just my eyes open.

Sometimes i feel like i'm trying too hard. I'm trying all the time impress someone, i try to be bright and shiny, but for some reason people think that i'm sad all the time. Or if i'm not sad, i'm nervous, because after lunch i have like BIG expresso and i'm shaking when i go back to school. My body got used to the nescafe already and now real coffee is a shock for my body. My heart beats fast and i can hear my blood rushing trough my brain, and that's freaky. But i like it. It's like the first time with coffee all over again.

I was just thinking that maybe someday i will write this blog in only spanish. Now i'm writing the story of my life in spanish, because i have to. O' how i missed homework.

Ensimmäistä kertaa kaipasin oikeasti suomeen. Tai oikeastaan Hailuotoon. Ehkä ihmisellä voi sittenkin olla kaksi onnellista paikkaa, sillä jos nyt tarkkaan mietin, niin Hailuoto is my happy place también. I love that little island, missä ei ole edes alkoa, ja joudut raahaamaan juomasi sinne oulusta. Mutta minähän olenkin raitistunut täällä, joten enää ei tarvitse raahata viinaa minnekään. Tämä on jo neljäs päivä raittiina. Kiitos kotiarestin.
Ja minä rakastan monia asioita, ja jos ne sanoo suomeksi ääneen se kuulostaa hassulta. Oikeastaan kaikki suomeksi kuulostaa hassulta, joten en sano enää mitään, sillä en niitä muullakaan kielellä tänne aio kirjoittaa, sillä joku saattaisi vahingossa ymmärtää.